umm...

Okay, i think my car would like to be drop kicked.

it wouldn't start this morning.

then...i went to call my boss and tell him i couldn't come in today, and my phone died before i got it all out.

yeah. just fun.

so...i didn't go to work today. and i'm taking a day to chill myself out, because this stress is going to kill me.

literally, i might just die.

well, enough for the dramatic stuff. my stomach has been gurgling incessantly for the past half hour... i'm not really sure why, but it's kinda freaking me out.

yep. i guess i should do some homework and/or laundry.

gurgle.

The Joy of the Lord

So... I find that it's very easy for me to become unhappy. This really makes me sad.

haha. but seriously.

My life is pretty average, and sometimes I get discouraged by that. I'm also finding that I'm going to be pretty overwhelmed this year, and that stresses me out. I'm dealing with some situations that make me borderline bipolar, and that usually ends up with me being upset.

to name a few examples.

anyways, I just find myself losing my joyful heart amidst the clutter of stress, discouragement, and emotional rollercoasters. And for awhile there, I really didn't care too much.

like, whatever. pretty much sums it up.

and I guess that something I will be struggling to remember this year is to find my strength in the joy of the Lord. God has been so good to me, and somehow I have no problem finding things to be unhappy about.

A verse that I really like that kinda deals with this comes from Nehemiah 8...  the people are basically learning about God, hearing from His word and building their community (in the physical sense and the relational sense) And Nehemiah instructs them "Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is sacred to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength." Then all the people went away to eat and drink, to send portions of food and to celebrate with great joy, because they now understood the words that had been made known to them.

just something to think about. praying that this is a fruitful year....

Happy New Year!

Alright.

Why am I feeling so wide awake?

I want to go somewhere...right now. Like shopping or something. I don't know...actually I would like to go bowling again, or skating. Oh, Duh! You don't know what I'm talking about... We had a New Year's Eve All-Nighter which was yesterday, and we went bowling and skating and my band played....Adonia!

Yes, it was quite the ordeal... i get really nervous when  i am in front of a bunch of people and they are all staring at me, watching my every move, waiting for me to mess up...

No, it wasn't like that actually. All Else Failed was very supportive of Adonia and they were a huge help in getting the crowd into the songs. It was really cool.

And of course, All Else Failed was awesome. I learned all of their songs so i could sing along and really get into it, and i think that helps get the rest of the crowd involved. Cause like, if you're the only one doing something (most of the time) you feel really weird, but if someone else starts it and they are doing it too, other people join in, and then like everyone does it because they don't want to be the one that looks stupid because they are doing nothing all alone. Basically, another form of peer pressure...

Or maybe if you start getting into the music, everyone else will want to join in because it looks like you are having the most fun ever. I like that one better.

I don't know, but the all-nighter was fun. And that is all.

Chicken...

Man, I have to make the chicken.

Hold on a sec...

Okay. So tomorrow is New Year's Eve, and Adonia is playing their first ever show at the youth group all nighter.

I am so nervous... I hope we do an awesome job...we really need to practice. Tomorrow.

AAHHHH!!

Dang the chicken... hold on.

Alright. So I really don't know what else to say...

Oh wait!

I got a cell phone for Christmas!!!!

That is all.